be awesome.

Thinking about past versions of myself, I've come to realize just how sad I am. I've been pretty down lately with everything that has been taking up space in my brain. Gary and I are planning a major life change but that in and of itself is stressful. Work is stressful for very different reasons. Life is stressful. I am so stressed out that I barely sleep. I cry a lot. I hardly laugh or smile. I'm not passionate about things. With all that said, I am excited to be happy again. I see a light at the end of the tunnel but the tunnel is really, reallllly long.

I need to stop being sad/stressed/depressed/etc and start being awesome. (at one point, I really thought I was!)


Amanda said...

I remember feeling that same way and I remember the time Neil was going through that. The biggest thing, and you've already identified it, is that you have the power to change. You aren't a victim to your sadness, Go be awesome! Nothing and no one can stop you' Its all about you.

Bridget said...

I've been praying and thinking about you guys and this verse keeps coming up...

Matthew 11:28 "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest."

And if my opinion is worth anything...I think you still ARE awesome. You're just walking through a deep valley at the moment. You'll be up on the mountain top before long! Call me if you want to talk:)